10000 steps

so.... I kinda guestimated my steps because my pedometer was broken for the month of april and most of may... and I have had a serious illness that has lasted since feb... and I had surgery in may... so I am no where NEAR my goals for this year.... BUT... I just want to take a look at this... I am nearing 7 million steps... I have never done 7 million of ANYTHING!!!!

I was feeling very down on myself because my last weigh in was 313... official weighin tomorrow... and I am hoping I am down... and I was feeling horrid... I was 345 when diagnosed with diabetes in April 2004... I am offically at a loss of 32#... I had gotten all the way down to 269 as of summer of 2007 but I have gained it almost all back.... I am very sad and upset and down and urg...

but... I got the new pedometer battery.....

I have all of the bits and pieces that I need to put together this puzzle... EVEN will power... there is not some sort of clue... there is no magic pill or powder or diet or wand or potion... there is just me and just God...

I am reminded of one of my favorite scenes from a movie... Where Vizzini and the Man in Black are finally together and Vizzini says "So, it is down to you and me then." Truley it is... it is down to me and food...

well I have spent the last four years building up an immunity to iocane powder... and now comes the time to use it....

Goals for this upcoming week
chart all food at http://fitday.com/
limit intake to 25k cals per day
h20 96 oz per day
no real fitness goals this week as I am still recouperating from surgery

I would like to be below 290 by my birthday in 59 days.... thats 23# in almost 3 months... 12 weeks.... or almost 2# per week... given that I am feeling MUCH better... I can do it....