new button

you may have noticed a new button on the side promoting www.feelyourboobies.com

here are a few words from their site ""Many young women tune out messages about breast cancer because they don’t believe they are at risk. Here at Boobies Central, we know that research shows that simply “feeling your boobies” (aka “breast awareness) is just as effective at identifying lumps or other breast changes as the traditional step-by-step process of “breast self-exams”. And that’s exactly why we’re here -- to give you “a friendly reminder when you least expect it”. So get feeling girls, and remind a friend to do the same.""

so here is my reminder... go to the website... get yourself a button... tell a friend... but most of all feel your boobies!!! (or have your husband do it? LOL)

Sunday weigh in

well.... I have my official weigh in on sundays :)

I am down to 323.... down 4#.... my average fasting blood sugar this week is 140... not so good :(

I only worked out 3 days this week and yesterday we went to Sherando Lake and I WAYYYY over did it and got dehydrated.... so today I was down... I was down HARD.... so drinking the water is my priority and will start the working out again tomorrow...

I don't have my date book with me to count my gold stars but I know that I have been at least 80% of the days to the treadmill to work out since I restarted on the 9th and it is getting easier....

so I will post tomorrow (or the next day) with an update of exactly how much I have worked out.... and I want to get measurements sometime soon :D

today is the day for new beginnings!!!

update

well... since the 9th... (15 days) I have been to walk on the treadmill for at least 30 minutes 12 times...

sun I was 327.... yesterday 325.... and today 323... I don't know that this is actually real weight loss so I will just wait until sunday to post actual weight :)

well

I haven't been watching at ALL what I eat....

yesterday actually ate half a cake.... just because I wanted too.... so I should not be surprised that this morning I weighed in at 322....

I am ready to cry... I can't seem to control my eating... I feel like a whale.... and I am tired... tired... tired...

but I did go to the treadmill and walk.... every day since tuesday... and I plan on going today... so... I guess just keep walking and get food in order later....


my face hurts so much.... my sinuses are still full of yellow cruddy mucus... and I am just ready to say to heck with it and drown in chocolate :( I want to be healed from this surgery... I want to be healed from this infection... I know that eating horridly is impacting my healing... and I am not going to heal until I can get my eating in order.... I just don't care anymore.....

weight and workouts

well.... weighed in today at 322.... grrr had a wedding yesterday... lots of yummys.... then driving all yesterday and today so munchies!!


anyways.... made it every day since tuesday to treadmill... so babysteps :)

weight

my weight is going.... grrr

yesterday 319.6
today 318.8


so an almost 1 pound loss.... not making me happy though... I haven't been this heavy in years... I am not past my heaviest weight (345) so I am not devastated... but close... I have been very depressed both over my weight and my health... I am not healing well from this dumb surgery... my eating habits are contributing to my not healing...

I am going to talk to my doc about antidepressants when I go back next week... also about a weightloss medication...

trying hard to make it to the gym daily... either at school or at the YMCA... going today... I just need to buckle down and do it... I know what to do... just need to do it....


today is the day!

wednesday!

well yesterday went well.... I managed to eat well all day and only moderately overate at dinner... had 3 large glasses of water (20 oz each) and a 16 oz diet soda for beverages... so 76 oz fluids... not quite the goal I set of 96.... but close... I am gonna work a little harder today to get that extra fluid.... it is my goal to get the fluid counts up... then make the fluids all GOOD fluids ;) LOL


I walked 5500 steps.... not quite the 6k of my goal but I went shopping and it was insanely HOT outside and I got very dizzy and it was horrible by the end of the day :(

so today's goals are.... 96 oz fluid and 6 k steps and keeping food choices appropriate :)

sigh

still not well from the bleeping surgery.... we cut back on the steroids... and the inflammation in my sinuses is so bad and causing so much drainage that yesterday I had a severe asthma attack... so.... I go to the doc today and I am gonna tell him that it just needs to be increased....


I feel like a whale... I was 318.8 yesterday.... I am so grouchy... and cranky.... and tired of feeling ill.... that it isn't funny :(

goals for this week include
3 bottles of water daily
6000 steps daily

gotta get well.... I understand that the binge eating and nasty crap that I am eating is negatively affecting my blood sugar which is impacting my ability to heal.... so I need to get this eating under control so that I can heal.... I need to stop giving power to the prednisone... and get a pack of bubble gum.... and just stick to my guns.....

I am working on becoming a sugar free house again....

horrid day yesterday

pot luck lunch for the first day of class yesterday.... there is just something about a WHOLE table full of sweets and chocolate and temptation and evilness that just ruins my whole day!!!

I sucked.... bad... I did horribly,... I ate probably 2 whole plates of dessert... I DID start with one whole plate of veggies and healthy stuff... but I couldn't help going back for sweets :(

I feel sick today.... almost like a hangover... so I am going to have a cleansing day and try to not eat very much.... we shall see

sigh....

I logged 2800 cals....

my goal was 2500 so I overshot by a little bit.... I am going to be hungry later too.... because it is only 6 pm and I know it... so I guess I am going to drink some WATER and maybe just have a sugar free jello later :(

I haven't met my water goal.... I have had 32 oz... so... two more bottles before bed :)

10000 steps

so.... I kinda guestimated my steps because my pedometer was broken for the month of april and most of may... and I have had a serious illness that has lasted since feb... and I had surgery in may... so I am no where NEAR my goals for this year.... BUT... I just want to take a look at this... I am nearing 7 million steps... I have never done 7 million of ANYTHING!!!!

I was feeling very down on myself because my last weigh in was 313... official weighin tomorrow... and I am hoping I am down... and I was feeling horrid... I was 345 when diagnosed with diabetes in April 2004... I am offically at a loss of 32#... I had gotten all the way down to 269 as of summer of 2007 but I have gained it almost all back.... I am very sad and upset and down and urg...

but... I got the new pedometer battery.....

I have all of the bits and pieces that I need to put together this puzzle... EVEN will power... there is not some sort of clue... there is no magic pill or powder or diet or wand or potion... there is just me and just God...

I am reminded of one of my favorite scenes from a movie... Where Vizzini and the Man in Black are finally together and Vizzini says "So, it is down to you and me then." Truley it is... it is down to me and food...

well I have spent the last four years building up an immunity to iocane powder... and now comes the time to use it....

Goals for this upcoming week
chart all food at http://fitday.com/
limit intake to 25k cals per day
h20 96 oz per day
no real fitness goals this week as I am still recouperating from surgery

I would like to be below 290 by my birthday in 59 days.... thats 23# in almost 3 months... 12 weeks.... or almost 2# per week... given that I am feeling MUCH better... I can do it....

goals

goals for this week are simple... I intend to not pass out :)

recovery is going well... yesterday I walked around walmart... well not AROUND per se... but I did go in and get my stuff and not use the wheelie cart!!!

so yesterday I got 3k steps

my plan is to decrease food this week... rest as much as possible... no workout goals... classes start tuesday... and I HAVE to be ready!!

well.... update

Alrighty then... the sinus infection from hell lingered... I had surgery on 12 May to clean out my sinuses and everything... hoping that I will start feeling better soon... I am feeling slightly excited because I looked at my last weight (310.2) and I have only gained 2.5# with being on prednisone for basically 4 months straight...

So I am at 312.7... and I have only worked out 4 times since the beginning of Feb... but I am feeling better... and should be able to start working out again next week... it all depends... because right now I am extremely tired just to sit in a chair... let alone work out...

time for a nap

18 feb

month is not going well... I have only worked out 4 days... been sick with a terrible ear infection... got a new scale 310.2 ... going to try and post more... we shall see

Jan update Feb goals

January did not go as well as planned... some health issues kept me from working out as much as I wanted... (sometimes I dislike being a girl!!)

anyways here is the breakdown.
6 mile - 1 day
3 mile - 11 day
2 mile - 4 day
1.5 mile - 3 day
1 mile - 5 day
0 mile - 7 day
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total = 31 days
total = 56.5 miles

So not quite the 85 miles I was originally aiming for. But I spent the 17th through the 21st basically on my couch because of pain. so 4 days I missed for I am going to call it illness (even though it happens to every girl... I think if it lands you on your back for 4 days it is an illness!!!) So I only missed 3 days for just not wanting to work out. I reached my mile goal by 66%. I made my day goal (28 days out of 31) by 86% (24 days).

The day I walked 6 miles, I did the three mile video in my house in the morning then in the afternoon we walked to the library (1.5 miles away) the second three weren't exactly aerobic miles because I had the kids with me... but it was fun!

So I have decided that my goal for Feb is going to be based more on days worked out than on miles walked. My goal is to walk 26 of 28 days. So far I am falling a little behind I have 5 days of 10, so if I am going to make goal I have to walk more days than are left in the month. So I will be reevaluating that goal next week.

We shall see!

Benefits of exercise

Benefits of exercise

This is what I want to talk about tomorrow... I am too tired to do it now... but I will talk about it.... tomorrow... or later

YEAH!

The month is almost over. Next saturday is the last day... Got 3 miles in today... and it didn't start to get hard until the end of mile 3 (about 6 min until the end) so I think that's good...

Loads of homework to do :(

Goals

I probably won't make mine for jan... 8 days left (not counting today) and I have 40 miles left to go... BUT I have only missed 6 days... 3 for me being sick... one for a sick boy... and 2 just because I didn't want to work out...

I figure as far as establishing a habit goes I did a pretty good job!

Hopefully when I go to the doc next friday they can figure out what to do with me so that I don't get this monthly "vacation" from exercise... I am really excited about this... I am having fun and I can see results!!!

Sigh

4 days off. Three because I was sick (well it was my monthly, but I was sick from it) and then a fourth because wednesday Chris had to go to the ER first thing in the morning EARLY and by the time we left I was too whooped to work out...

BUT, today I did. I did one mile. I can't believe how worn out I am just from a couple days of being down. I did a mile though. I am almost to the end of the month and I only missed a few days...

sigh... because of comfort eating... and water retention... I am back to 310... but it is all good because I will go back down... I just have to remember comfort eating in MODERATION!!!

February goals

February goals:
26 of 28 days exercise
230K in 28 days
Chart all cals

ugh

No workout today. I slept until almost noon :( I have cramps so bad that vicodan isn't helping. Going to go make some pancakes (aka comfort food) and hope tomorrow is better.

I don't know if you can see the difference here. You can see the divot in my chin, and my cheeks aren't as full. Of course it is difficult because in picture 2 I am in my Halloween makeup... the first picture was taken this week. Picture 2 was in oct last year, the most recent I have that is THAT close up...


I am getting there! Today was hard because I had cramps so bad that I had to take vicodan and stop my workout after 1.5 miles... Sometimes I just DON'T like being a girl :(

breakdown

I want to take a mid month breakdown of the progress of my workouts.

3 miles - 9 days
2 miles - 4 days
1 miles - 1 day
no workout - 2 days

I am feeling really good... I can definitely feel a difference in the way my clothes fit... I am back on the scale to 309 but I think that it is because I haven't been watching at ALL what I eat... in fact I have been eating somewhat horribly... Well that's ok because my goal for Jan was only to work on my working out... I think that next week I am going to start getting serious about the food I am eating... I feel like I have gotten pretty good at the habit of working out and the time has come to add another change. My first change will be to record a food diary for two weeks to know where I stand on average with my cals before I try to set any limits....


Have an awesome weekend! Remember today is the day that you can change. Today is the day!

I did it!

I was so tired this morning. Didn't manage to work out BEFORE the kids got off to school, but I did after. I was so tired. My workout is 43 min 45 seconds long (according to the time stamp on my dvd player.) At the 23 min point I was so beat I said "that's I'm gonna finish the two miles and be done."

BUT, I had the gospel music playin and I thought, well I'll just finish this song (it ended right after the 2 mile mark). Then I kinda just went, well I'll finish the next song. By that point I was at 27 minutes and I was like, wellllll I think I can make it to the 30 min point. After that I was just like, well heck it's only 13 more minutes, I can do 13 minutes! Then at the 35 min mark I was like I can't quit now only 8 more minutes. The whole thing was just like a mantra 6 more min 6 more min 6 more min 5 more min 5 more min until the end.

BUT, I did it. I managed to make the full 3 miles. I think that I am having some girl issues right now. My cycle hasn't exactly resumed after having been on those drugs for so long. But it used to correlate to the full moon so I think that my body is trying to get back on track because I feel like crap. Anyways. I have only missed ONE day in the month of Janurary. ONE!!!!!! WOOT!!!!

Here's to developing the habit.

Almost 2 weeks

Saturday it will be 2 weeks since I made the decision to work out daily. So far I have missed 1 day. Flylady says it makes 28 days to make a habit. So I am half way there! I have exercised 19 miles in Jan so far. I think next month I am making my goal just based on steps for the whole day and not on what I do in the mornings... Might be more interesting.

My scale says I weigh 5#. It only goes up to 300. Two weeks ago it said I weighed 10#. I am going to take that to mean I have lost 5#. I am so excited!!!

cool book

My son is almost 12 and is very interested in weight lifting in order to further his competency in his chosen sport, soccer. We have been looking for a good book for him for a while now and I believe I have found the best book for teenagers. He found the new Mario Lopez book at the library and saw the picture of the great big hulking Mario (sorry Mario but every time I think of you I see you in "Saved By The Bell") . Anyways, I think that the Lopez book is a very well written book. It is very descriptive and has good pictures and good recipes. BUT, it is not a very good book for a preteen. Jeff looks at the book and thinks that within a few months of beginning to workout he will look like Mario Lopez! (don't we all have some sort of delusion that we will see awesome results after working out for a few weeks and when we don't see miracles we think we are failures and then head for the tub of ice cream???)

But let's face it, an almost 12 year old boy has as much chance of looking like Mario Lopez as I do of becoming a high wire acrobat. Neither are very likely. Now in 6 years, Jeff may be able to look as toned as Lopez, but that won't be for a while.

Anyways, as to the book I found. Weight Training by Gustav Mark Gedatus. This is a very good book with a lot of advice for a young teen starting an exercise routine. It teaches a teen how to develop their routine by showing them the right questions they need to ask. It shows them how to set appropriate goals and tells them of some of the dangers (and stupidity) of drugs or supplements. It teaches them how to talk to an adult about what they want to get from their workout and also that they need a TRAINED adult to help show them proper form with weights. It emphasises the importance of warm up and diet and keeping records and setting appropriate goals (heck the more I think about this book the more I think it is good for ANYONE setting out on a workout journey!!)

We got this book from the library. I read it and now Jeff is reading it and answering all the "introspective" quizes so that we can develop his routine. He has decided he wants to go to college on a soccer scholarship so he has been buggin me about this for several months now. The boy is in 5th grade!

Pics

I haven't posted pics. These are from 2 weeks ago. (27 Dec) I will try to post every sunday. You can already see a difference in my face.


These are from last week.


I didn't take the second set. I need to though because changing the angle makes it look different. Also, the second set was long after workout and the first set was right after hence the difference in lighting and redness of my face!

lunch

I honestly have to say that lunch is my favorite meal of the day. Breakfast I eat because I have too. Ant it is generally small because well I have to eat before working out, diabetes sucks. It also has to be small because you can't exercise on a full stomach. Dinner is usually a rushed affair with people needing to be places and stuff needs to be done. Homework and sibling squabbles and dishes and crap.

But lunch. Lunch for me is usually my biggest meal. Also I rarely have to race through lunch.

So here is todays lunch
Salmon Salad

One large salmon fillet (about 5 oz)
1/2 c salsa
1 cup spring greens
1/2 c broccoli slaw
1/4 large tomato


Preheat oven to 350. In a small pan cover salmon with salsa and cover with foil. I used frozen fish so kept the foil on til it was thawed then took the foil off the last 10 mins for some browning. Total cook time will vary. For a frozen 5 oz fillet it took about an hour.

In a large bowl put the rest of the ingredients. When the salmon is done, put it in the bowl. I took the pretty picture then mixed it up. The salmon/salsa mix is fairly moist, so I didn't think it needed any dressing. Even if it did, that whole HUGE bowl of stuff is only 230 cals according to this recipe analyzer.

I like to use broccoli slaw mix from a bag in.... well in basically everything. I use it in salads, stir fry, soup, whatever. I don't really like broccoli in the clumpy shapes it comes in. I do however like it shredded. The bag has broccoli, carrots, and red cabbage. Very yummylicious.


I found this new salsa from pace. Triple Pepper salsa. Very awesome. Here is the word from Pace. "True, we are jalapeño fanatics, but there are lots of great-tasting peppers out there. So we put three of our personal favorites together. The kick comes from Serranos and Guajillos. Then we add some mild green Chilies to keep your smoke alarm from going off." I put this on the salmon as it was baking. Kick is right! I like it hot sometimes and this fits the bill.

A whole huge bowl of food for 230 calories. I am in heaven.

8 days

one full calender week
8 workouts
saturday to saturday

I feel good. I tried to weigh again today. It goes all the way around and to the 8. Last week it went all the way around and to the 10. I don't know if that means I have lost 2#. My scale becomes unreliable around 295. Supposedly it is a 300# scale. HMMM. School starts the 12th so I will have access to the scale in the nursing lab.

This makes 8 miles so far in Jan. It is amazing. I also track on 1000 Steps. I have taken 5,526,799 steps since 1 June 2007 (well recorded anyways, and some days I estimated because I went for weeks without wearing my pedometer or actually exercising, but I estimated low.) It is amazing to me to be working on my 6th million step mark. I mean I realize that everyone walks during the day. It is just amazing to me to be able to say I have counted that many steps.

So anyways. the counter at 1000 Steps says I should complete my 6th mil by 22 Feb. My goal is to get that by 15th Feb. I will let you all know!

Goals

My goal is to do 85 miles of exercise videos in the month of Jan.
That breaks down into 25 days of 3 miles and 6 days 2 miles.

:)

Christmas Prayer.

I found this prayer on the back of an ornament. The picture has a manger with Jesus and Santa is kneeling over Him. There is a Christmas tree in the background.

Santa's Christmas Prayer

"Lord, You know that You're the reason I take pleasure in this season.
I don't want to take Your place, but just reflect Your wondrous grace.
And so when they begin to open gifts for which they have been hoping,
may they give You all the glory, for You're the One True Christmas Story."

I just have to say AMEN!

Now to go put away the rest of the ornaments and decorations and get the house back to normal ;)

LOL

WOOT!!

I woke up so tired this morning. I could not get my mind around how much my back hurt. I have a horrid bed that is mainly staying up because of plywood and bricks and wire. Ugh. and arthritis in my back. And last night I forgot my pain meds before bed. So. Agony this am.

Woke up and took some meds. Aleve for the inflammation and lidocaine for the back and hip. The weather has been a BOOGER!

Started dinner (spaghetti sauce is cooking in the oven, home made, from scratch, YUMMY). Sat for an hour to let the drugs start to work. Once the drugs started working, turned on the DVD player. My daughter comes in and says "Oh your going to work out huh?" Yeah, I am. So she sneered at me and said, "This should be easy, I can do it with you."

HAH! I bet her dishes duty tonight that she couldn't make it to the end without complaining that it was hard. Let's just say that I don't have to wash dishes tonight ;) and she has a new respect for the workouts I have done EVERY morning for a week. Tomorrow makes day 8!!!!

Again I say
WOOT!!!

New Years!

Alas, celebrated too much last night. Way over ate. Grr. At least this morning I woke up and did a brisk 2 mile walk. Also boy#1 has friends over and we are going to have a cookout at the park later! Or maybe just a bonfire and weenie roast I haven't decided it depends on how warm it gets.

This makes 6 days in a row I have worked out. At least 2 or 3 miles each day. New year new goals.

But ALWAYS remember... EVERY day is a day for new beginnings. It could be a Wednesday. Or Friday the 13. It could even be noon. You can decide at NOON that or 5 pm that the day has gone poorly and it is time to reset.

HUGS!