well

I haven't been watching at ALL what I eat....

yesterday actually ate half a cake.... just because I wanted too.... so I should not be surprised that this morning I weighed in at 322....

I am ready to cry... I can't seem to control my eating... I feel like a whale.... and I am tired... tired... tired...

but I did go to the treadmill and walk.... every day since tuesday... and I plan on going today... so... I guess just keep walking and get food in order later....


my face hurts so much.... my sinuses are still full of yellow cruddy mucus... and I am just ready to say to heck with it and drown in chocolate :( I want to be healed from this surgery... I want to be healed from this infection... I know that eating horridly is impacting my healing... and I am not going to heal until I can get my eating in order.... I just don't care anymore.....